It's the Fall now and I definitely felt the shift right before it happened. I felt the days growing a little darker sooner, I felt more tired, have been feeling more drained than ever. Also on the emotional front I've been feeling a little restless and like I'm "almost there"; like on the cusp of something (not sure yet what that is). I just entered on Monday, my 9th week of Focus T25. I can't believe it's been 9 weeks already! Actually it's been 10 since I began but I wasn't feeling so great one week, so I decided to do that corresponding week over. The workout itself is my favorite so far. There are so many days when I get home from work exhausted and decide to take it easy and rest. I figure I should give myself a break from a hard day. Then there's this tiny voice that says "cmon, you should really work out", and then I respond "but I'm SO TIRED", then the voice goes "It's only 25 minutes, just try your best", and that usually does the trick for me. I play the DVD's on my laptop, so what I do is place a piece of paper over the screen to cover the timer. I don't like watching the countdown because it feels like time moves slower then. When I don't look at the time, the workout flies by and I feel amazing when I finish. Some days I am so tired that I only do about 15 minutes, but I don't feel bad because I figure something is better than nothing. My favorite Focus T25 DVD's (all included) are: Alpha stage: Cardio, Speed 1.0, Stretch Beta stage: Core Cardio, Speed 2.0 (MY FAV!), Upper Focus, and Core Speed. They each have a lot of modifications if you're just starting out, and the best part is when you're consistent with the workouts you'll eventually find that some things which were hard at first become progressively easier.
I haven't weighed or measured myself. I actually decided last month to take a break from doing that. It may work for some people but it doesn't for me. I hate feeling like a slave to the numbers when it's really about the feeling for me. I don't want to let the numbers on a scale or measuring tape define me or my body. I am much more than a body. I feel myself losing weight; my clothes fit much looser, I have an easier time doing things like running after my bus when I'm late, and having more stamina to do things. I tried measuring myself week to week and weighing myself, but realized the numbers were controlling me. I discuss my "ego trip" and negative thought patterns and behaviors in my last post "I forgive myself for being fat". Whenever I weighed myself it was like opening a door I did not want to deal with. If the numbers were higher than the last time, my self-esteem would be momentarily destroyed. If the numbers were lower than before, they weren't low enough. I just thought it was too much to deal with, so I choose to focus on how I feel rather than how much I weigh or how much weight I'm losing.
Actually I will be honest with you and say that I've been looking at myself naked more often and....
yea...
I made this pic collage of my week 1 and week 9, and also the fact that I can actually fit in the door frame comfortably, whereas with week 1 I wasn't able to. I still have a hard time seeing the physical changes in these pictures, but oh well, here you go!
As for Veganism, if you're just tuning in to my randomness now, I previously discussed taking a Vegan approach to my weight loss (check "Going Vegan") and needless to say I fucked up, and that's OK. I'm not meant to be a Vegan, at least not at the moment. I'm not a big meat eater and thankfully dairy is no longer a vice, but you have to have a lot of patience to be a Vegan. You gotta be religiously aware of what you're consuming and the best option is to prepare your own meals. As I've stated before, I am not a fan of cooking and I just don't care to cook. I usually prepare 3 meals per 7-days, in large quantities to last me for a couple of days for lunch and dinner. But after a while I just get bored of the same thing, and I'm just lazy. I'd rather buy frozen foods and just heat them up. I know it's great to cook your own meals but I commute about 3 hours total, per day, by the time I get home I barely have the energy to keep up with life, let alone working out. I think my next endeavor with consumption will be juicing. I really like Shakeology and would love to do a juicing detox soon, before the new year.
Speaking of which, we are less than 3 months away from 2014! I've come so far and have accomplished so much; I'm at the home stretch and want to really focus my energy on the last few 2013 goals, which are:
1) Get my driver's license
2) Blast the belly bulge (would love to reduce it by half before the new year)
3) Finalize some short-term career goals, which include solidifying a position with a great salary
4) Create a plan of action for my writing goals
5) Would love to be in a solid relationship, at least starting out
I'm thankful I have my Magical Manifesters lesson plans to guide me through the last bit of 2013.
Whew! I know that was a lot to take in, but hopefully you laughed, you cried, and you'll be back for more! Till next time!
P.S: Check me out on Joyful Shimmy! I was interviewed by my great friend and sister, Laura Yamin, on my journey from East to West (almost 1 year ago!). Check it out and let me know what you think!
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